00:19:43 Mishy Jacobson: What is the name of this song? 00:20:29 agnes borinsky: hi hi everyone 00:20:40 Sara Lyons: hello beauties 00:20:46 agnes borinsky: i know we usually start like 5:06, today we’re gonna hold till 5:08 cause we’re gonna do a performance 00:20:50 agnes borinsky: and i wanna catch latecomers 00:20:56 Donna Oblongata: is it a small crowd today cuz of how nice it is in the northeast for once? 00:21:10 agnes borinsky: perhapppss! 00:21:18 Donna Oblongata: oh or I guess its not a small crowd. 00:21:19 Donna Oblongata: oops 00:21:27 agnes borinsky: so many beautiful faces here tho 00:21:43 agnes borinsky: welcome welcome - was just saying we’re gonna hold till 5:08 00:21:53 declan z (they/them): agreed!! hi everybody :~) 00:23:03 Lila Becker: it’s even nice in the midwest! 00:24:53 agnes borinsky: hi everyone 00:25:01 agnes borinsky: i wanted to start in silence this way 00:25:09 agnes borinsky: we’re gonna do two things today 00:25:11 agnes borinsky: cause it's friday 00:25:20 agnes borinsky: we’re gonna shift from thinking, analyzing 00:25:22 agnes borinsky: to 00:25:30 agnes borinsky: making, recalling 00:25:35 agnes borinsky: looking, sitting still 00:25:38 agnes borinsky: and then 00:25:39 Adam Mazer: california, also very nice 00:25:43 Adam Mazer: shocker i know 00:25:43 agnes borinsky: we’re gonna 00:25:52 agnes borinsky: look back at the whole poem together 00:26:01 agnes borinsky: with the eyes not of analytical whatevers 00:26:10 agnes borinsky: but the eyes of delight, receptivity, and pleasure 00:26:17 agnes borinsky: yah? does that sound okay? 00:26:20 agnes borinsky: it is a friday after all 00:26:23 yehudal.hyman: YES!!!! 00:26:26 agnes borinsky: so 00:26:32 Eliza Bent: A thousand ouis 00:26:35 agnes borinsky: i’m gonna tell a little story 00:26:39 agnes borinsky: to warm us up 00:26:45 agnes borinsky: maybe it’s sort of a love story 00:26:49 eligelb: this is beautiful 00:26:56 agnes borinsky: and then i’m going to give us some parameters for the performance 00:27:08 agnes borinsky: and we’ll end the performance around 5:45 00:27:13 agnes borinsky: so 00:27:16 agnes borinsky: last night 00:27:21 agnes borinsky: i was feeling out of sorts 00:27:24 agnes borinsky: and it was late 00:27:31 agnes borinsky: and i saw that i had a message 00:27:34 agnes borinsky: in what’s app 00:27:40 agnes borinsky: from someone named brigitte 00:27:43 agnes borinsky: now 00:27:50 agnes borinsky: brigitte is someone i met in new york 00:27:57 agnes borinsky: i was in new york last october 00:28:00 agnes borinsky: for almost a month 00:28:10 agnes borinsky: and it felt like a very full month, my heart was very full 00:28:15 agnes borinsky: i was seeing people i love 00:28:25 agnes borinsky: and spending time in places i knew well and mostly love 00:28:32 agnes borinsky: and one night i went to a performance 00:28:36 agnes borinsky: that a friend of mine had curated 00:28:41 agnes borinsky: in a basement in bushwick 00:28:57 agnes borinsky: this friend’s partner has come to the working group a little, actually, max 00:29:04 agnes borinsky: it was a dance performance 00:29:15 Paul K. Smith: yes? 00:29:19 agnes borinsky: and staying with my friend was 00:29:26 agnes borinsky: someone named brigitte 00:29:36 agnes borinsky: a very magnetic person 00:29:41 agnes borinsky: who was visiting from bogota 00:29:44 agnes borinsky: and we talked a little 00:29:55 agnes borinsky: and at the end of the performance i said something like, it would be really nice to talk more 00:30:10 agnes borinsky: (because there were things we’d said that seemed like we’d have more to talk about) 00:30:13 agnes borinsky: and brigitte said 00:30:20 agnes borinsky: well how are we going to do that? 00:30:25 agnes borinsky: except in spanish, cause 00:30:28 agnes borinsky: i don’t think i said this 00:30:32 agnes borinsky: but brigitte 00:30:35 agnes borinsky: was visiting from bogota 00:30:43 agnes borinsky: and so we exchanged numbers 00:30:53 agnes borinsky: and a few days later we met outside the new york sports club on mercer street 00:31:02 agnes borinsky: and decided we were going to walk into brooklyn 00:31:19 agnes borinsky: and one of the things we had talked about, or maybe one of the things that my friend had told me about brigitte 00:31:26 agnes borinsky: was that she had changed her name 00:31:30 agnes borinsky: a few years ago 00:31:33 agnes borinsky: i don’t know her old name 00:31:41 agnes borinsky: but she changed it to brigitte potente 00:31:54 agnes borinsky: and so we talked about how that name had come to her, and how it had 00:32:05 agnes borinsky: been playing out in her life, all the things it was changing 00:32:12 agnes borinsky: and i’d recently chosen a new name myself 00:32:20 agnes borinsky: so i was interested in this question 00:32:22 agnes borinsky: um 00:32:27 agnes borinsky: so 00:32:35 agnes borinsky: there was a word brigitte kept using 00:32:48 agnes borinsky: in relation to her body, describing what her dance work was, the work she makes with her company 00:32:51 agnes borinsky: desubicar 00:33:00 agnes borinsky: which i think i such a beautiful word 00:33:10 agnes borinsky: and 00:33:11 agnes borinsky: um 00:33:18 agnes borinsky: it’s like, to take out of a place 00:33:19 agnes borinsky: literally 00:33:26 agnes borinsky: but more means like to confuse, disorient 00:33:40 agnes borinsky: and that was what she was interested in doing in her body, in her dance work 00:33:46 agnes borinsky: or, i mean, as a dance maker 00:33:47 agnes borinsky: anyway 00:33:51 agnes borinsky: blah blah blah 00:33:53 agnes borinsky: we talked so long 00:33:55 agnes borinsky: my brain was tired 00:34:01 agnes borinsky: because i’m okay at spanish but not great 00:34:08 agnes borinsky: and i was sort of fumbling to communicate 00:34:17 agnes borinsky: and feeling also like this person and i understood each other very well 00:34:28 agnes borinsky: and also like i wasn’t always sure we both knew what we were trying to say 00:34:32 agnes borinsky: anyway 00:34:35 agnes borinsky: to make a long story short 00:34:41 agnes borinsky: we got to the brooklyn bridge 00:34:44 agnes borinsky: and started across 00:34:53 agnes borinsky: and brigitte told me to close my eyes 00:34:58 agnes borinsky: and she took me by the arm 00:35:03 agnes borinsky: and she started to lead me across the bridg 00:35:04 agnes borinsky: e 00:35:13 agnes borinsky: and it was kind of amazing 00:35:21 agnes borinsky: how much i could feel through the soles of my feet 00:35:25 agnes borinsky: i could feel what was under the bridge 00:35:34 agnes borinsky: like, whether it was chinatown 00:35:37 agnes borinsky: or the river 00:35:38 agnes borinsky: i could tell 00:35:44 agnes borinsky: and it wasn’t just sound, it was in my feet 00:35:50 agnes borinsky: and my breathing was speeding up 00:35:54 agnes borinsky: and i felt a little afraid 00:35:55 agnes borinsky: and the bridge 00:35:57 agnes borinsky: y"all 00:36:00 agnes borinsky: that bridge is fucking long 00:36:07 agnes borinsky: so we kept walking 00:36:11 agnes borinsky: and at a certain point we switched 00:36:16 agnes borinsky: and i led brigitte 00:36:27 agnes borinsky: and then when we got to brooklyn we just hugged each other for a long time 00:36:29 agnes borinsky: we hadn’t been talking 00:36:32 agnes borinsky: and then we got on the train 00:36:42 agnes borinsky: and we were talking again but sort of like boring small talk 00:36:46 agnes borinsky: and i think we were both tired 00:36:54 agnes borinsky: and then i got off first 00:36:57 agnes borinsky: and waved 00:37:09 agnes borinsky: and that night i went to see the opera, orfeus et euridice 00:37:23 agnes borinsky: (with eamon, who’s been part of the working group actually) 00:37:34 agnes borinsky: and i don’t know how it happened like this 00:37:42 agnes borinsky: but that was the last time i saw brigitte 00:37:52 agnes borinsky: we exchanged a few long what’s app messages 00:38:03 agnes borinsky: and then a few days ago i thought of her, and sent her a hello 00:38:12 agnes borinsky: and she wrote back the most beautiful note like a week later 00:38:28 agnes borinsky: and then yesterday, sent me an invitation to this online performance 00:38:31 agnes borinsky: her company was doing 00:38:39 agnes borinsky: and that’s what i watched at 12:01 last night 00:38:48 agnes borinsky: lying on the couch feeling really out of sorts in my mom’s house 00:38:53 agnes borinsky: yeah 00:38:55 agnes borinsky: i think that’s the story 00:38:57 agnes borinsky: the end 00:38:59 agnes borinsky: so 00:39:04 agnes borinsky: the first thing i want to do 00:39:07 agnes borinsky: in this performance 00:39:13 agnes borinsky: is pick someone - 00:39:22 agnes borinsky: like, if you’re looking in gallery view, pick someone 00:39:31 agnes borinsky: and go to the little three dots in the corner of their box 00:39:34 Paul K. Smith: !!!!! 00:39:40 agnes borinsky: and pick “pin video" 00:39:55 agnes borinsky: and we’re just gonna take a minute, or a little less, and get to be with someone’s face 00:39:58 agnes borinsky: and i know it’s maybe weird 00:40:03 agnes borinsky: cause you won’t know who’s pinned you 00:40:09 agnes borinsky: and it’s uncomfortable 00:40:19 agnes borinsky: but i think we have been doing this enough that we can hold it gently 00:40:20 agnes borinsky: okay? 00:40:23 agnes borinsky: so yah 00:40:26 agnes borinsky: go ahead and pin someone 00:40:30 agnes borinsky: i’ll give us a minute 00:40:45 Theresa Columbus: yes ok! 00:41:26 Donna Oblongata: this is exciting! 00:41:36 agnes borinsky: wonderful 00:41:39 agnes borinsky: you all look beautiful 00:41:42 agnes borinsky: now unpin that person 00:41:46 agnes borinsky: and pin someone else 00:42:08 agnes borinsky: and be with that person a lil bit 00:43:16 agnes borinsky: ah! 00:43:18 agnes borinsky: wonderful 00:43:21 agnes borinsky: now one last time 00:43:24 agnes borinsky: unpin that person 00:43:27 agnes borinsky: and pin someone else 00:43:29 Philip Gates: a huge summer downpour erupted in pittsburgh just as we started this and it is *very* special 00:43:43 agnes borinsky: <3 00:43:49 sara lyons she/they: ! 00:44:20 agnes borinsky: okay 00:44:23 agnes borinsky: now you can unpin 00:44:28 agnes borinsky: and go to gallery mode a sec 00:44:39 agnes borinsky: and we’re all just gonna blow a little kiss to close act one 00:44:50 agnes borinsky: act two 00:44:53 Paul K. Smith: * 00:45:12 Beau LaBranch: Love the big group number 00:45:13 agnes borinsky: would someone start by unmuting themselves and starting to read chapter 5 of song of songs? 00:45:23 agnes borinsky: we’re gonna read the text through once, just of chapter five 00:45:28 agnes borinsky: starting with 5:2 00:45:38 Donna Oblongata: can you share the link? 00:45:41 agnes borinsky: “I was asleep but my heart stayed awake" 00:45:43 agnes borinsky: yes! 00:45:44 agnes borinsky: one sec 00:46:00 agnes borinsky: https://www.dropbox.com/s/6l4g79rn6o1zah9/SongofSongsEntire.pdf?dl=0 00:46:11 agnes borinsky: so just chapter 5, starting with 5:2 00:49:36 agnes borinsky: beautful 00:49:38 agnes borinsky: thank you 00:49:40 agnes borinsky: that was act two 00:49:42 agnes borinsky: act three 00:49:46 agnes borinsky: (the last act) 00:49:57 agnes borinsky: what if this last act were open 00:50:02 agnes borinsky: and it had two proposed rules 00:50:07 agnes borinsky: which were: 00:50:19 agnes borinsky: the only thing we hear are the words of chapter 5 of song of songs 00:50:25 agnes borinsky: (in any order) 00:50:34 agnes borinsky: and the only thing we read in the chat are love stories? 00:50:53 agnes borinsky: and what if at the end of this act, the entire 3:21 of nina simone’s “cherish” played, to signal that the play was over? 00:51:11 agnes borinsky: and what if the act was a little over ten minutes long? 00:51:18 agnes borinsky: yah? 00:51:22 agnes borinsky: act three begins 00:51:23 agnes borinsky: ... 00:51:23 agnes borinsky: .. 00:51:25 agnes borinsky: … 00:51:26 agnes borinsky: now 00:51:46 clarefelicity: the last time i was in love with someone was in beirut 00:51:47 yehudal.hyman: We kissed and kissed on Van Ness Avenue and the world turned around us eternally and the night was forever. 00:51:48 Jerry Lieblich: I’m watching a very small spider 00:51:58 clarefelicity: and it was my last day in the country 00:52:00 Jerry Lieblich: with an yellow-white circle around her back 00:52:01 clarefelicity: and i got my period 00:52:02 Sara Holdren: I went to an acting program in London when I was 20 00:52:05 Jerry Lieblich: crawl and jump about this glass table 00:52:11 Jerry Lieblich: she doesn’t spin a web - she wanders 00:52:13 Sara Holdren: i skipped classes to go with a boy to Stone Henge on the Summer Solstice 00:52:15 clarefelicity: and i ran all over beirut collecting ingredients for a potion 00:52:18 clarefelicity: to stop my period 00:52:20 yehudal.hyman: and then I walked him home to his apartment where he lived with his crazy sister who didn’t speak 00:52:21 Jerry Lieblich: and has the most amazing courage in her jumps 00:52:23 clarefelicity: cuz i wanted him to eat my pussy 00:52:27 clarefelicity: and i felt crazed 00:52:30 clarefelicity: in love 00:52:47 Jerry Lieblich: I watch her closely, with a respect 00:52:48 Mishy Jacobson: I met a boy in an orange sweater at the library sophomore year of college 00:52:49 yehudal.hyman: Later I found out that he really only enjoyed having sex in public in dangerous places 00:52:49 Donna Oblongata: i was at the all you can eat breakfast at the Scottish Rite building in Lake Worth, Florida. And sitting by himself on the far end of the giant table I was sitting at was this little hobbit guy stuffing his face with cake and sausage from the buffet and I thought, "That one. I want that one." 00:52:52 Jerry Lieblich: for whatever message she bears 00:52:53 Jerry Lieblich: in her body 00:52:55 Sara Holdren: We ran screaming through the stones while it poured rain. There were people with capes and wands and a drum circle and fields of red flowers. I had sex with a different boy that summer. But that night was the night. 00:53:02 Lila Becker: i drove 10 hours to the women’s march - from Kentucky to DC - with a guy i had just started dating 00:53:15 Lila Becker: we stayed with my family in DC 00:53:21 Lila Becker: he met my whole family 00:53:31 Lila Becker: we spent 72 hours together 00:53:40 Lauren Miller: He told me I was his, and I was. But he wasn’t mine. 00:53:41 yehudal.hyman: and I am a very different person than he. I like my lovemaking quiet - a hush - a secret between us 00:53:42 Mishy Jacobson: five years later he’s my best friend 00:53:43 Lila Becker: six months later he broke my heart 00:53:52 Lauren Miller: And all along I was my own. 00:54:00 Lila Becker: but i learned what i needed to know 00:54:03 Lila Becker: to fall in love again 00:54:03 Mishy Jacobson: But he doesn’t love me the same way I love him 00:54:07 Donna Oblongata: Later that day I found out that we lived 10 blocks from each other, even though we were meeting 2000 miles from where we each lived. 00:54:12 Daniel Krane: i slow danced to sufjan stevens in a college dorm room 00:54:20 Sam Max: I don’t know if I’ve ever felt I was in love but I do get extremely obsessed with particular things! No one has ever told me if obsession and love are supposed to be the same feelings! 00:54:20 yehudal.hyman: The last time we made love was in the Amazon jungle - really - up against a tree. Only the spiders could see us. 00:54:26 Daniel Krane: “we’re in love, we’re in love, palisades, palisades, i can wait, i can wait” 00:54:42 Gus et Jacob: When I was 15 I stared at a 38 year old cock and balls inside Levis 501’s and now I wear 501's 00:54:43 Daniel Krane: i cried and cried and said i love you for the first time 00:55:00 clarefelicity: i think i was obsessed with the man in beirut, not in love 00:55:07 Jerry Lieblich: she’s perched on the side of my computer 00:55:12 Jerry Lieblich: leaning over the edge just a bit 00:55:16 Jerry Lieblich: right by the button to unmute 00:55:18 yehudal.hyman: the last time I heard from him was an email asking me to wire him $500. I wired him 200 00:55:19 Lauren Miller: I was so full of him I was empty and heavy at once 00:55:27 eligelb: no beginning or end, just that she showed up at my door with a dragonfruit 00:55:29 Sam Max: I was obsessed with the guy at Carnegie Mellon pre college who kissed me and then said he had to go to the bus real quick and I never saw him again 00:55:30 Donna Oblongata: He told me he'd be back in Philly in two weeks. I texted him two weeks later to see if that was true. But he was still in Florida. He'd been beaten to within an inch of his life by some guys outside a bar. It would be at another two weeks til he was recovered enough to come back. 00:55:31 Ryan Gedrich: I trained myself to fall for an Emirati spy because I was tired of being alone, wanted his money, and thought the lack of lust made the relationship adult 00:55:32 sara lyons she/they: in 2018 and 19 i spent about a year having wild, open, incredible sex on and off with someone i’d reconnected with from my past- someone who was a secret but crucial part of my first sexual awakening 10 years earlier 00:55:32 Sam Max: He had enormous feet 00:55:34 Megan: We talked and talked and drank from a flask at Brooklyn Bridge Park. There was a full moon and I said, “Now, THAT’S a moon.” He repeated it back to me weeks later when I asked him if he had seen the moon yet that night. But that first night, he rode me home on the back of his bike and everything felt glorious. 00:55:37 sara lyons she/they: it was like making love to my past self 00:55:39 Lauren Miller: I wanted to be next to him not all around him 00:55:42 yehudal.hyman: I had forgotten how much I still loved him until just now on this chat screen. 00:55:53 Ryan Gedrich: he begged me to fuck him, but I said no because he maybe had the clap 00:55:56 sara lyons she/they: we had a very toxic relationship, both times 00:55:56 Beau LaBranch: I sometimes think I feel the love of those that have not loved me yet, I sometimes feel them like vapors, I feel them in the creeping that wraps around the edges of me 00:56:07 sara lyons she/they: a part of me still loves him 00:56:11 Ryan Gedrich: then he broke up with me, but we remain friends. 00:56:23 Lila Becker: i think you never stop loving the first person you loved 00:56:23 josephinefalco: When I was very young—12 or 13—I waist love with a boy named Skip. He didn’t have time for me or rather saw me only as someone’s little sister. But I remember him still, when I’m standing at the kitchen sink, picking up a knife. 00:56:24 Jay Stull: many mays ago, i fell in love with a man who had a Vespa and we went to neighborhoods too far to walk by foot and that had no subway station and he was a sickness and i had a fever for years 00:56:25 Ryan Gedrich: I miss him sometimes, or the easy comfort. 00:56:26 Lauren Miller: I think he is a monster now and I wonder if I made him one 00:56:29 sara lyons she/they: like i’m waiting for him, or me, or someone to fix his decade old wound 00:56:32 Donna Oblongata: Two weeks later, I asked if he was back and wanted to come to a party in the warehouse near his house. I spent the whole night trying to get him to hang out with me in the "Anxiety Tent" that someone had setup at the party. We didn't go in until we were the last people in the building. 00:56:34 Sara Holdren: I met a man at a Brooklyn bar that’s closed now on November 27, 2017. It was a Monday. The next Monday we spoke aloud that we’re getting married, right? Right. We ran through the east village in an ecstatic cloud. We are getting married. Whatever that means. All the things it means. Here we are. 00:56:55 lyndseybourne: Today I felt so much love emptying the blood etc. from my Diva cup 00:57:04 Jerry Lieblich: and now she’s made it - from computer, to hat, to metal chair - easily 40 times her body length in distance 00:57:06 lyndseybourne: and then I felt love cleaning my Diva cup 00:57:07 Theresa Columbus: Mousey a good 20 years older than me. She was so cute and started dating a man that owned a small bar/restaurant one block from my first solo apartment in New Orleans. She had a house she showed me which blew my mind, it was a largish square above a garage with different sections, “this is where I make my sketches of ladies, this is where I make hats with eggs on them, this is where I take bubble baths with my lover. Oh my, she was so romantic. She played piano while she invited people to sit in the porch swing 00:57:36 Gus et Jacob: i wonder if I ever have been in love or if I am always just obsessed 00:57:42 Lauren Miller: And I found my own love monstrous too. I was disgusted by how full of love I could be 00:57:42 Daniel Krane: i kissed a man so hard i fell down a staircase 00:57:43 Megan: He was a lumberjack by day and a drummer in a math rock band by night and if that’s not as Seattle as it gets I don’t know what is. 00:57:45 declan z (they/them): I love this person who I have known for 3 years, who is a very close friend. He had feelings for me first, and I didn’t think I had feelings for him, when we first met, and then 6 months later I told him I was dumb for not seeing it sooner, and he said not right now 00:57:49 Daniel Krane: he helped me up and we walked inside his apartment 00:57:52 yehudal.hyman: I wonder if he’s still alive? 00:57:56 maddy + raphi: i wonder if i’ve ever been obsessed 00:57:59 lyndseybourne: and then I danced to Obvious Child in my room and I felt like a person, a person full of love, for the first time in so so long 00:58:00 maddy + raphi: or am i always just in love? 00:58:00 Jessica Goldschmidt: i fell in love for the first time and it woke me up in the middle of the night and i couldn’t stop shaking 00:58:01 Donna Oblongata: I was still living with my boyfriend at the time and his ex-girlfriend had been occupying his bedroom for almost two years while he slept on the living room floor waiting for her to leave. 00:58:03 sara lyons she/they: i haven’t been in mutual love for many years. most days, i feel this overflow of potential love that has no object. i think it’s part of why i love groups, and audiences, to help receive it 00:58:08 Cricket Brown: A lot I forget, but never all of it. They come back in weird sex dreams or silences. My current lover— I eat their warmth 00:58:13 Lauren Miller: And why disgust? Its sad really. It’s perverse. But I loved him too. 00:58:15 Dina Vovsi: A guy I had a one-night stand with almost 10 years ago moved to my corner about a year ago. I see him sometimes and we wave or say hello. Quickly and in passing. He’s a musician. Lately, he’s been playing his saxophone down by the river at night in the park where I walk my dog. I don’t know why. Maybe he doesn’t want to bug his neighbors. It wasn’t a good one-night stand. The sex was bad. I’ve never loved him. I still don’t love him. But I love the moment. I love the secret that we have when I walk by. I told my partner the other night but I wish I hadn’t because I fell out of love with the secret because it was no longer a secret. 00:58:22 Lauren Z: My first boyfriend was french moroccan and since neither of us celebrated Christmas we spent the evening in Chinatown in the rain. And he was holding a black and gray umbrella that framed his face so beautifully that I made him stop and take a photo. I treasure that image because I can still return to that moment, with his full lips pressed together smiling as if we were the only two people in the world. 00:58:33 Gus et Jacob: My ex boyfriend and I put our relationship on film and now it’s screening across the globe and I’m in America, sad. 00:58:39 Donna Oblongata: Eventually my boyfriend left me and his ex moved out. And now here we are. 00:58:45 declan z (they/them): And then 2 months later we shared an uber after a party and held hands in his living room while his roommate got her pussy eaten by our other friend and we talked about what we wanted and what we felt and the important context is that it was 2 weeks before Christmas, and in January, I was leaving to go to Paris for 4 months 00:58:51 declan z (they/them): And we kissed that night 00:59:00 Daniel Krane: we broke up and he asked me to write his wikipedia article 00:59:09 Sara Holdren: Nathaniel used to take me to a goth club underneath a sushi restaurant senior year of high school. I wore a corset and a wig and giant black boots. He dip-kissed me in the parking lot behind his tan Volvo. It was a full moon. 00:59:10 declan z (they/them): And he took the elevator down with me and we kissed until my uber came 00:59:27 eligelb: When I was 24 I went to visit a girl in London with whom I had a long romantic friendship. It was clear by that point in our relationship that we weren't a good long-term match, but we had a lot of affection for each other and I hoped that this trip might be an opportunity for us to let it run free. It's a sentiment she shared at the time I booked my flight. 00:59:28 declan z (they/them): And I got in the uber and I remember touching my hand to my lips and thinking my lips had never felt so soft 00:59:31 declan z (they/them): I still remember how they felt 00:59:41 yehudal.hyman: My beloved is not mine and I am not his 00:59:41 Sam Max: I think I’ve kissed as many straight people as gay people! Just to prove something! What a waste of time! 00:59:43 Beau LaBranch: I miss meeting random men in bars!!!!!!!!! 00:59:52 declan z (they/them): We hung out a few more times after that, before we left for the holidays 00:59:53 Cricket Brown: Blindfolded me and took me to the zoo !!! 00:59:53 eligelb: I arrive on her boyfriend's birthday. She'd told me about him two days before I was supposed to leave. I told her I didn't think I should come anymore; she convinced me we'd still have a lot of fun and he wouldn't be around much because of his job. But he's very around, and very nervous. (She and I were sharing her bed.) Eventually we have a big fight, and then we make up. We vow to make the most of my time there, and we're starting to have fun. We run into some people from college at a flea market and I invite them to go out with us that night. 00:59:58 maddy + raphi: we dropped acid and walked 7 miles through the deserted streets of rio de janeiro on the last night of carnaval 01:00:05 maddy + raphi: we did?! or yeah, we did. 01:00:08 Angel Z: I fell in love once with a person I have never spoken to I loved them for a year and we still have not spoken 01:00:10 declan z (they/them): Every time we kissed I felt like, why would I ever need to kiss anyone else 01:00:14 lydia blaisdell: he was so goddamn handsome that i fucked him when he had pink eye and I told him I didn’t care, and I didn’t. 01:00:16 Lauren Miller: Sometimes I’m in love with how much love I can hold and give. And that love disgusts and delights me too 01:00:21 maddy + raphi: and then walked home with 10,000-ish of our new best hungover friends 01:00:22 Lauren Z: I have never loved the sound of my name. But when he said it like “Lohr-renne” I felt elegant. 01:00:25 Megan: I wanted it so bad every ounce of me wanted to explode and now I’ve never been so grateful nothing happened between us. 01:00:39 eligelb: We meet up, we're all drinking, She and one of the guys from school start flirting and then it's five AM and we're supposed to go to the castle in the morning but they're dancing and I'm drunk and confiding in this girl from school I barely know and then her eyes go wide and she points behind me and Rachael and the guy are kissing on the dancefloor and I'm heartbroken and I go over and tell her I'm leaving. The trains aren't running and I'm drunk and my phone is dead and I don't remember her address and I don't have much moneyBut there's really nice cab driver who lets me get in his car in spite of everything and I said I know she lives on holloway road can you just drive on holloway road and I'll look for landmarks and that's how I got back to her apartment.And then I packed up my stuff and moved to a hostel. 01:01:05 eligelb: It was a disappointing trip, but it put a very definitive end to a saga that needed to be over. She and I met up during the day and did things together for the last few days of my trip. We're still friendly. She's married now. She sent me a nice text on my birthday. 01:01:24 Paul Legault: I was on a hill in the countryside completely naked with a man I had been with for a few months under a full moon and didn’t want to leave that place and wasn’t sure why I should have to and wanted to be old there and thought it was ridiculous that there was a full moon like an edict made of light telling me to remember what this feeling was, how it was love and everything was growing, the earth was pushing grass up I thought I could see it coming at me 01:01:50 Philip Gates: he was driving a uhaul full of my stuff down the pennsylvania turnpike less than three months after we met, we passed an oscar mayer weinermobile on the road and i’d never seen one before and i was like, this is it. 01:01:55 declan z (they/them): And then we left for the holidays and the n I went to Paris and everywhere I went in Paris I thought about bringing him there and then I came home from Paris and he was in Switzerland and then we were both finally in New York at the same time, 7 months later, and I asked him and he said no, and then I asked him again 4 months later and he said no. That was a little over a year ago. He’s one of my closest friends. I don’t want any of this to sound like ill will. I love him. 01:01:59 Cricket Brown: a club in Berlin, when I looked like a boy, he was studying law and had been in the club for three days by that point 01:02:20 declan z (they/them): I haven’t asked him since that. We send each other letters in Animal Crossing now. 01:02:32 declan z (they/them): I write him poetry in French and mail it via the Animal Crossing mail system 01:02:40 Philip Gates: but we broke up a year, almost to the day, later 01:02:46 yehudal.hyman: Also in Tokyo with a guy in the Japanese company of A Chorus Line. 01:02:47 Dina Vovsi: There are still bloodstains on my comforter (like the inside, there’s a duvet cover) from the last guy I had sex with before my partner and I became monogamous 6 years ago. He played a fireman on a TV show. We went to college together and the teacher would always pair us as lovers in acting class scenes and it was inevitable and eventually anytime he was in New York, he’d come over. Like once a year. And the last time, on his way out, he said something like “I’ll let you know when I’ll be back here” and I said, “oh, no, I think after tonight things will be different because….because…” because I knew I had fallen in love and I suddenly didn’t care about firemen anymore. 01:02:52 maddy + raphi: old men used to stop us on the street and say we were cute 01:03:09 declan z (they/them): I haven’t kissed him since the holidays years ago, since before I went to Paris 01:03:11 maddy + raphi: when u could still talk to strangers close up 01:03:23 yehudal.hyman: I think most of the people Iam in love with are dead. Sorry. 01:03:24 Lauren Miller: Why are love stories so sad but make me smile at the same time? The sadness is sweet 01:03:37 jordanbaum: something i heard the other night helped me to live and/or 01:03:38 jordanbaum: love 01:03:41 sara lyons she/they: sometimes i feel like the greatest love of my life is with the capacity of my mind 01:03:46 agnes borinsky: and then 01:03:48 agnes borinsky: what if 01:03:54 agnes borinsky: the big velvet red curtain descends 01:04:04 agnes borinsky: and the bottom part bounces a little on the stage when it does 01:04:08 agnes borinsky: and the audience applauds? 01:04:19 agnes borinsky: (that was beautiful, thank you all!) 01:04:22 agnes borinsky: okay 01:04:25 agnes borinsky: deep breath 01:04:32 agnes borinsky: (that was self-instruction) 01:04:37 agnes borinsky: what i’d like to do now 01:04:49 agnes borinsky: is read aloud the whole song, from the beginning, up to where we left off 01:04:54 agnes borinsky: at the end of chapter 5 01:04:56 agnes borinsky: yah? 01:05:04 agnes borinsky: we begin 01:05:08 agnes borinsky: whenever we’re ready 01:05:25 agnes borinsky: (and as you go, all you have to do is listen for moments you love) 01:17:43 agnes borinsky: ok 01:17:46 agnes borinsky: wonderful 01:17:52 agnes borinsky: let’s put away the text 01:18:06 agnes borinsky: i’m gonna give us i think just under 15 minutes to write 01:18:12 agnes borinsky: and i’d like us each to write 01:18:14 agnes borinsky: chapter 6 01:18:17 agnes borinsky: of the song of songs 01:18:21 agnes borinsky: what comes next? 01:18:36 agnes borinsky: i’ll play some music, but feel free to mute if you don’t lilke 01:32:17 Paul K. Smith: Agnes the song helped with its words 01:34:28 maddy + raphi: yesss 01:34:32 agnes borinsky: oh i’m so glad, paul 01:34:42 maddy + raphi: almost like some sort of *cure* 01:34:44 maddy + raphi: ;) 01:34:50 agnes borinsky: :P 01:35:13 agnes borinsky: alright 01:35:19 agnes borinsky: i wanted to save even just a few minutes 01:35:23 agnes borinsky: to share 01:35:24 Paul K. Smith: awright 01:35:25 agnes borinsky: if folks are willing 01:35:32 agnes borinsky: little bits, even, from what you wrote? 01:35:35 agnes borinsky: please do! 01:39:03 agnes borinsky: beau l? 01:45:10 Michael Leibenluft: I’m gonna transcribe here 01:45:12 Michael Leibenluft: not in my voice today 01:45:14 Sara Holdren: Warbling bear! <3 01:45:31 Michael Leibenluft: The daughters of jeruslame step out of the shower and dip red toes into ruby red bathmat 01:45:36 Michael Leibenluft: They clutch each other 01:45:38 Michael Leibenluft: they sing in harmony 01:45:40 Michael Leibenluft: As always 01:45:45 Michael Leibenluft: they sing yearning of rlove 01:45:48 Michael Leibenluft: They go on tour throughout the world 01:45:53 Michael Leibenluft: my love is their body guard 01:46:00 Michael Leibenluft: Whispering in the ears of every gullible fan 01:46:04 Michael Leibenluft: “They do exist they do exist” 01:46:11 Michael Leibenluft: (The end) 01:47:27 Angel Z: how beautiful 01:47:31 Angel Z: thank you 01:47:47 Beau LaBranch: I love everyone’s words!!!!! 01:47:48 Donna Oblongata: Is it to share? 01:47:51 Paul K. Smith: OK 01:47:52 Lila Becker: thank you, all. this so was gorgeous. 01:48:00 sara lyons she/they: thank you for this, all of you <3 01:48:00 lydia blaisdell: thank you agnes and all!! today was beautiful and nourishing. 01:48:12 Kate Benson: Thank you!! 01:48:18 Paul K. Smith: thank you! 01:48:20 Sara Holdren: Thank you thank you Agnes and everyone <3<3<3 01:48:21 eligelb: Love to all 01:48:24 MOLE: oh agnes, thanks you for making a love song of us, many strangers 01:48:28 Paul K. Smith: bye all for now 01:48:28 Sara Holdren: (Does this exquisite chat get saved?) 01:48:28 Megan: Thank you, Agnes and Everyone! 01:48:28 Jay Stull: thank you! lovely lovely 01:48:32 Valerie Work: Thanks Agnes and everyone! Enjoy the weekend. 01:48:37 Eliza Bent: i am destroyed (in a good way) 01:50:38 Philip Gates: thank you everyone <3 <3 <3 01:50:40 Theresa Columbus: Zoom link: https://us02web.zoom.us/j/85219324683 01:50:46 agnes borinsky: saturday @ 8 01:50:52 agnes borinsky: est 01:50:59 agnes borinsky: (baltimore time) 01:51:00 yehudal.hyman: Thank you everyone. Thank you Agnes. Shabbat Shalom. 01:51:07 agnes borinsky: shabbat shalom <3 01:52:09 Theresa Columbus: Sat 8EST also on facebook https://www.facebook.com/artpartheidbmore/?ref=bookmarks 01:52:14 maddy + raphi: gam lach, achoti, raiti 01:54:55 Cricket Brown: Epic donna