17:00:39 From agnes borinsky : my heart is very full, seeing y’all’s facs 17:00:58 From Declan Zhang : last week was my first time missing a group meeting since i started coming! 17:00:59 From Declan Zhang : i missed everyone!!! 17:01:08 From sara lyons (she/they) : @declan felt your absence! 17:01:19 From Declan Zhang : @sara <333333 17:03:18 From agnes borinsky : we’ll get started in 3-4 min — welcome all! 17:05:28 From agnes borinsky : If this is your first time joining us, please follow this link -- just to be official about acknowledging that we're recording this for archival purposes. Thank you!! https://forms.gle/jFZCPgxJx8Jbtaty6 17:07:20 From agnes borinsky : we’re gonna start in a second - honestly i just don’t want to cut off the last moments of this song 17:08:11 From sara lyons (she/they) : LAST WEEK WAS THE NIGHT BEFORE THE ELECTION 17:08:14 From sara lyons (she/they) : WE WERE FREAKING OUT 17:08:34 From Adam Mazer : i love it when things happen 17:08:38 From Declan Zhang : i was shut off from the world and watching survivor 17:08:41 From sara lyons (she/they) : cheers to things 17:08:45 From Adam Mazer : like this week was incredible theater 17:08:46 From Declan Zhang : the season finale of millennial vs get x 17:08:48 From Declan Zhang : incredible stuff 17:08:51 From Adam Mazer : in addition to just being incredibble 17:09:00 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : STACEY ABRAMS 17:09:03 From noah (he-him) : ryan & bill 17:09:04 From agnes borinsky : Mr. McBee 17:09:05 From michellenavis : My mom 17:09:05 From Dan Hasse : My brilliant sister 17:09:06 From sara lyons (she/they) : yeah stacey!! 17:09:08 From Jacob Perkins : me in a month 17:09:09 From Olivia : my parents 17:09:09 From Lauren Miller : Alyson and Kate 17:09:11 From Will Brumley : Lilly 17:09:11 From Adam Mazer : candice 17:09:14 From wintermiller : stacey a 17:09:14 From Whitney Mosery : cori 17:09:15 From Declan Zhang : just me 17:09:16 From Jessica Almasy : all of my grandmothers. 17:09:17 From Maia Karo : Savta 17:09:17 From Shara Feit (she/her) : my father 17:09:17 From Carmen R. : My sisters 17:09:18 From sara lyons (she/they) : for mark today 17:09:19 From Elise Wien (she/her) : corinne and kayuri 17:09:21 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : olivia 17:09:25 From Daniel Krane : Caitlin 17:09:27 From Paul K. Smith : the turkey I will slay and devour for Thanksgiving 17:09:27 From patrick ferreri (he/him) : Ogbitse and her little man, Krishna 17:09:28 From Reuven Glezer : My friends 17:09:29 From Daniel Lupo (they/them) : my mom recovering from minor surgery 17:09:31 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : (tho stacey can learn all of us forever, not sure what i/we have to offer her) 17:09:33 From Yehuda L. Hyman : The family of my father in Poland. It’s Kristallnacht tonight. 17:09:33 From sara lyons (she/they) : and my future wiser self 17:09:33 From sarah wisby : My students 17:09:36 From eliza bent : for ham and cheese 17:09:40 From wintermiller : gerald 17:09:46 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : yay cheese! 17:09:47 From Kate Benson : my brothers 17:09:52 From Kate Benson : and sisters in law 17:09:53 From Pinar : my parents 17:09:55 From Kate Benson : and their kids 17:10:00 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : andrew and laura 17:10:02 From Daniel Scharfman : all of us here 17:10:10 From Will Brumley : Oh and Miriam 17:10:11 From Dina Vovsi : My nieces, Stevie & Dilly 17:10:32 From wintermiller : my mom? 17:10:36 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : HI AGAIN 17:10:48 From Jordan Baum : hi Katherine ! 17:10:54 From agnes borinsky : https://www.rustchukfarm.org/working-group.html 17:11:37 From Elise Wien (she/her) : ignore the html! 17:15:13 From Maggie Cino : it is my (no-longer-on this plane) Nana’s birthday today 17:15:36 From Declan Zhang : sloshy 17:15:37 From Will Brumley : optimistic 17:15:45 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : is pre-relief a feeling? 17:15:45 From sara lyons (she/they) : droopy 17:15:46 From Adam Mazer : fucking great but a little cold because surfing 17:15:46 From Olivia : weary 17:15:46 From Lauren Miller : Release 17:15:46 From noah (he-him) : Trying to untangle loops of string 17:15:47 From Daniel Krane : Hazy / sleepy 17:15:48 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : How are you feeling? Or how would you describe your feelings? ( 17:15:49 From Maia Karo : breathing 17:15:49 From Carly B : amused 17:15:50 From sarah wisby : delighted 17:15:51 From Pinar : Wonderful 17:15:52 From Yehuda L. Hyman : fearful 17:15:52 From Reuven Glezer : Weary 17:15:54 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : i shall be relieved (but not yet) 17:15:55 From Jessica Almasy : very tired. 17:15:55 From Declan Zhang : if i wiggle my torso i can feel myself sloshing around in here 17:16:01 From Carmen R. : skeptical 17:16:02 From Olivia : & wary 17:16:06 From Daniel Krane : My back is tight 17:16:06 From Jacob Perkins : relieved, burdened, sad, not sure how to celebrate anymore 17:16:09 From Yehuda L. Hyman : Spiders crawling in the bed in the walls unseen 17:16:11 From michellenavis : Good day 17:16:13 From patrick ferreri (he/him) : Tentatively optimistic (when the sun is out) 17:16:15 From eliza bent : lonely 17:16:18 From Kate Benson : restless tired 17:16:19 From lyndseybourne : overwhelmed, overstimulated, saddened by the country 17:16:19 From olivia : anxious 17:16:21 From christine doempke : content and present, and a little sore 17:16:23 From Daniel Lupo (they/them) : flustered 17:16:23 From Nathan Mullen (they/he) : overwhelmed 17:16:27 From Daniel Scharfman : satisfied 17:16:32 From jody and jeffrey : unfocused 17:16:34 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : What are you wanting? What are you needing? 17:16:37 From Reuven Glezer : Healing 17:16:41 From Lauren Miller : A hot meal 17:16:43 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : clarity, a break 17:16:43 From sara lyons (she/they) : i want big fat love 17:16:44 From Nathan Mullen (they/he) : love 17:16:46 From Will Brumley : A new start, time, a reset, sleep 17:16:47 From Carmen R. : Peace and kindness 17:16:49 From michellenavis : touch 17:16:49 From Carly B : breathing room 17:16:49 From Olivia : parameters 17:16:50 From Paul K. Smith : I feel Silence is Complicity, and for His Silence, God should pay the wages of sin which is death. After all, it is written, God created Death so that He doud die, too. 17:16:50 From Mishy Jacobson : To be held 17:16:51 From Daniel Krane : Greater clarity in a relationship 17:16:52 From Daniel Lupo (they/them) : acupuncture 17:16:53 From Declan Zhang : time time time, always time! 17:16:53 From Yehuda L. Hyman : assurance that we will get through this and onto the next world of hope 17:16:54 From Shara Feit (she/her) : good sleep 17:16:55 From Pinar : two separate things in two separate areas of life - outcome and presence 17:16:55 From Daniel Scharfman : tenderness 17:16:56 From Adam Mazer : wanting? time with people i love! needing? probably like a day to chill 17:16:57 From Jacob Perkins : i want him to be in a different place than he is 17:16:58 From olivia : connection in space 17:17:00 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : YES touch touch touch touch 17:17:01 From noah (he-him) : Easy falling-into-place 17:17:01 From Jordan Baum : rest 17:17:02 From patrick ferreri (he/him) : a return to the open sense of possibility 17:17:02 From Dina Vovsi : feeling: energized from seeing family and soaking them in. 17:17:03 From Elise Wien (she/her) : hot ub 17:17:05 From lyndseybourne : more quiet, more sleep, more reading time, less screens 17:17:06 From Jessica Almasy : to feel an adults body weight on me for an extended period of time. 17:17:09 From jody and jeffrey : Downtime a fresh outlook, less tension in the atmoshere 17:17:11 From Nathan Mullen (they/he) : sweet, sweet love 17:17:14 From Carly B : hot Tub!! 17:17:15 From olivia : movement 17:17:20 From Kate Benson : exercise 17:17:22 From Declan Zhang : messy embarrassing bar cruising 17:17:23 From lyndseybourne : canada 17:17:24 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : a good cup of cosmic/spiritual coffee 17:17:27 From Dina Vovsi : Want: it to stay 75 degrees in NYC forever. 17:17:32 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : What do you have to give? 17:17:34 From Kate Benson : to be out in the world 17:17:40 From Jacob Perkins : energy 17:17:41 From Yehuda L. Hyman : An escape route 17:17:42 From Daniel Krane : Presence 17:17:45 From Elise Wien (she/her) : very good youtube video recs 17:17:45 From Adam Mazer : my axe! 17:17:45 From Reuven Glezer : What's left of my breath 17:17:46 From Paul K. Smith : everything that I have taken, I have to give. 17:17:46 From michellenavis : devotion 17:17:47 From Mishy Jacobson : Love 17:17:49 From Declan Zhang : love lovey love 17:17:49 From Lauren Miller : A willingness to ask 17:17:49 From Olivia : good questions & listening 17:17:49 From Pinar : time, attention, love, understanding 17:17:50 From Kate Benson : time, ears, labor 17:17:50 From noah (he-him) : absence 17:17:50 From Carly B : silliness 17:17:53 From Adam Mazer : (sorry, lotr reference) 17:17:54 From sara lyons (she/they) : attention, compassion, bad jokes, great head 17:17:54 From eliza bent : love and jokes 17:17:56 From Daniel Scharfman : enthusiasm 17:18:01 From olivia : food, love 17:18:01 From Whitney Mosery : attention 17:18:02 From Nathan Mullen (they/he) : my big ol ears 17:18:03 From Daniel Krane : Commitment 17:18:07 From lyndseybourne : service, love, labour, my time 17:18:08 From Will Brumley : my focus and attention within this time 17:18:08 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : jokes 17:18:08 From christine doempke : calmness. listening 17:18:10 From lyndseybourne : my commitment 17:18:10 From Daniel Lupo (they/them) : food 17:18:12 From wintermiller : curiosity 17:18:12 From Jessica Almasy : my sincere interest in listening to your darkest secrets and probably being able to top them so you dont feel so bad 17:18:12 From Declan Zhang : food 17:18:13 From eliza bent : hugs 17:18:15 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : uncertainties, silliness, a multiply-pierced listening ear 17:18:16 From sara lyons (she/they) : four cakes that i made today 17:18:18 From Whitney Mosery : whole lotta love 17:18:20 From sarah wisby : adoration 17:18:25 From Maia Karo : Fresh loaf of bread 17:18:31 From jody and jeffrey : comradehsip, connneciton 17:18:31 From Declan Zhang : affection 17:18:31 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : sourdough objects 17:18:32 From patrick ferreri (he/him) : attention 17:18:36 From wintermiller : I want to hear jessica almasy’s secrets without telling mine. 17:19:12 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : How did you retain hope? 17:19:14 From Paul K. Smith : How do you know when to give-- and when to take? 17:19:25 From wintermiller : This is so weird, I just wrote a letter to my ancestors. 17:19:29 From Reuven Glezer : What do you think of me? 17:19:31 From noah (he-him) : What magic did you live by 17:19:32 From wintermiller : out of nowhere. 17:19:41 From Carly B : Who are you? 17:19:50 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : Where are you from? 17:19:53 From Daniel Krane : What was most meaningful to you about how you lived? 17:19:53 From Adam Mazer : How could you do what you did 17:19:56 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : can anyone put a name to this unmentioned but deeply felt pain passed down through generations? 17:19:58 From Declan Zhang : did you still believe in communism when you left china 17:20:01 From Yehuda L. Hyman : Where are you? 17:20:04 From wintermiller : did you get anything you wanted 17:20:05 From Lauren Miller : Did you have a faith and was it the one I was handed down? 17:20:11 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : what were you ashamed of 17:20:15 From Whitney Mosery : why didn’t you tell us? what would you have said if you hadn’t chosen silence? 17:20:15 From Daniel Scharfman : what did you learn. what did you yearn for 17:20:16 From Mishy Jacobson : Was it hard to let go? 17:20:22 From sara lyons (she/they) : what are your secrets? 17:20:22 From Nathan Mullen (they/he) : What do you believe in? 17:20:23 From michellenavis : Are your thoughts stored anywhere for me to find? 17:20:24 From Daniel Lupo (they/them) : why did you come to america 17:20:24 From Elise Wien (she/her) : will you teach me yiddish? 17:20:28 From wintermiller : were you left behind? 17:20:31 From Pinar : What did you really think of your religion? 17:20:31 From eliza bent : What are your hopes for me? 17:20:32 From patrick ferreri (he/him) : Did you know when to leave? Do you wish you would have stayed? 17:20:35 From Olivia : how did/do you keep hold of yourself without losing the world and vice versa 17:20:35 From sara lyons (she/they) : is my challah good enough? 17:20:36 From christine doempke : what are you afraid of? 17:20:39 From Declan Zhang : what do i have to do to talk to you? 17:20:41 From noah (he-him) : Is this better 17:20:45 From Declan Zhang : is it nature? 17:20:47 From Daniel Krane : Would you be proud of me? 17:20:48 From Will Brumley : Who among you were actually criminals? 17:20:50 From sara lyons (she/they) : what do you miss? 17:20:50 From Jessica Almasy : why did you seem to die so fast and can I make it last longer. where do you want me to bury this weight. 17:20:54 From Jacob Perkins : what are the things that you thought were particular to your time but actually happen every generation 17:20:54 From Kate Benson : what did you waste and what did you save 17:20:56 From Daniel Scharfman : did you think about the future. or only survival 17:21:00 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : does this feel like what you lived through? 17:21:03 From sara lyons (she/they) : what did you wish for me? 17:21:07 From sarah wisby : Why keep procreating??? 17:21:12 From Declan Zhang : where do i find you? in china? where you died, on long island? 17:21:14 From Angel Z : what can you teach me 17:21:15 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : who by fire, and who by (etc)? 17:21:28 From sara lyons (she/they) : what does it mean to be jewish? 17:21:33 From Will Brumley : What was your ultimate goal? 17:21:35 From Daniel Scharfman : was the past in black and white or color? 17:23:19 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : I said Whatever you draw in five minutes is fine. You may go backwards on one line, or draw an overview. You might go forwards in time, where you are the ancestor you are asking things of. You might draw a shape. Whatever you draw is fine. 17:23:29 From Angel Z : what is your grief 17:24:35 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : what is something you were proud of that you might feel shame about now / what is something you were ashamed of that you might feel proud of now 17:24:38 From Angel Z : what should I know 17:24:46 From sara lyons (she/they) : who was queer 17:25:41 From Olivia Mole : who did you love, how did you love, how did you know love, how did you love yourself, did you love yourself? 17:28:31 From wintermiller : I typed in family tree into my browser because I was looking for a doc. and loretta lynn began singing family tree and I thought you were playing it and we were all hearing it. 17:28:52 From wintermiller : I hit quit and that cleared up that mystery. 17:30:30 From agnes borinsky : Identify an area of what you’ve drawn that is calling you, somehow. And in the next five minutes just do some free-writing, in, around, through, from that spot. 17:30:34 From agnes borinsky : No wrong way to do this. 17:31:05 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : You might choose a particular person to write about, or a more general set of connections in what you’ve drawn. 17:32:07 From Paul K. Smith : I can hear my grandmother telling me of her struggle. 17:36:08 From Reuven Glezer : I wish, I couldn't, Have you? 17:36:11 From Dan Hasse : Lost, reservation, stepmother 17:36:14 From Mishy Jacobson : Wounds, longing, love misunderstood 17:36:18 From Maggie Cino : Fortunate, Francesco, Pietro 17:36:22 From Jacob Perkins : infection / soil / contraception 17:36:23 From Pinar : creator, art, narcissist 17:36:26 From Carly B : wonder, yearnings, insides 17:36:28 From noah (he-him) : recognition / higher linkage / debris 17:36:28 From sarah wisby : Hard dry laughter 17:36:28 From Nathan Mullen (they/he) : Quiet, ripples, greatness 17:36:31 From Jessica Almasy : I am so tired, I am so tired, Paris 17:36:31 From Olivia : reticence | narrative disorder | what’s missing and what’s missed 17:36:34 From Raphi Soifer (he/they) : looking/fleeing/ancestral language 17:36:37 From Daniel Krane (he/they) : Loss, dead, imprint 17:36:42 From Will Brumley : Death notes / dome / queer 17:36:42 From Declan Zhang : hospital, made it up, still 17:36:44 From Daniel Scharfman : Jung in the swimming pool. Tentacle tree. Her book of poems 17:36:44 From Kate Benson : That must’ve sucked/there’s a lost branch sort of/she taught me to write my name 17:36:46 From christine doempke : Food is love, Running from quiet fences, Valium 17:36:47 From Daniel Lupo (they/them) : blessed peace / less bled peach / depressed beach 17:36:50 From Yehuda L. Hyman : A sip of schnapps. Last of the last. The right boot. 17:36:52 From sara lyons (she/they) : the intensity in her eyes, Dad grew up, terrible 17:37:02 From Lauren Miller : A handful were buried, sparing our offspring, book of secrets 17:37:03 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : extended / victims & survivors / pogroms 17:37:10 From michellenavis : Never got over losing you/ fiery/ remember 17:37:10 From Adam Mazer : learned, forgotten, inadequate 17:37:16 From patrick ferreri (he/him) : excusing, reigns, caught on the wrong side of the ocean 17:37:18 From wintermiller : the family wasn’t safe? / & why? never made much 17:37:52 From Dina Vovsi : Mud / purposefully hidden / I think I see you 17:39:56 From sara lyons (she/they) : for the first time in my life just noticed that “dad” anagrams to “add”. my dad is a mathematician 17:40:34 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : I am positive that I am and have always been possessed by my maternal grandfather’s shame ghost 17:41:20 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : Am Me host ham ha ssssssss 17:42:34 From sarah wisby : laughter/daughter/slaughter/ugh! 17:43:01 From Maggie Cino : For tuna tan nato. An ant fort. A fort for aunt. 17:43:05 From Reuven Glezer : I I wish I am a little tree 17:43:17 From Dina Vovsi : (@Sara Whoa! Add/dad! My dad is also a mathematician.) 17:43:31 From sara lyons (she/they) : @dina !!! 17:50:37 From Lila Rachel Becker (she/her) : @declan I want to know so much more! 17:53:27 From Jessica Goldschmidt : oh paul, “a night disease” feels like so much! 17:56:11 From declan z (they/them) : oh my god i forgot my dad had a wife before my mom 17:56:16 From declan z (they/them) : thank you jaclyn 17:56:21 From declan z (they/them) : i left her off the tree but i don’t even know her name 17:56:38 From jaclynbackhaus : @declan me either! will never know their names!! 17:56:58 From Reuven Glezer : this reminded me I had a secret step-grandparent... 17:58:55 From agnes borinsky : docs.google.com/document/d/17w7z-oQOSalQNz6Kf4Gu9PkAyxrgslmgerxnb7VW9qE/edit 18:00:34 From Jacob Perkins : ABSOLUTELY THE PERFECT SONG FOR THIS EXERCISE 18:05:02 From sara lyons (she/they) : that was incredible to watch 18:05:04 From eliza bent : ^^^ 18:05:09 From sara lyons (she/they) : that is the zoom theatre we all deserve 18:12:01 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : General questions (many were about particular lineages) From Paul K. Smith to Everyone: (5:19 PM) 
How do you know when to give-- and when to take?
 From Jacob Perkins to Everyone: (5:20 PM) 
what are the things that you thought were particular to your time but actually happen every generation 18:12:05 From Angel Z : Please could you re post the google doc in the chat 18:12:18 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : https://docs.google.com/document/d/17w7z-oQOSalQNz6Kf4Gu9PkAyxrgslmgerxnb7VW9qE/edit?usp=sharing 18:13:15 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : (This 18:13:37 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : Loss piles up on the side of a tree 18:13:47 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : tender eyes 18:24:27 From jaclynbackhaus : GO JESSSSS 18:24:58 From lyndseybourne : sorry to my breakout room! computer died 18:25:45 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : Thank you for that 18:26:17 From Angel Z : Thank you for your tenderness Jessica 18:26:40 From wintermiller : JEssssss YEs 18:27:51 From wintermiller : exit jesus 18:28:26 From wintermiller : are these the lyrics to godspell? 18:28:48 From Katherine Agyemaa Agard (she/her) : Oswald smoking opium in china - the only pcture i know of my great grandfather
hard packed earth
inside...lived twice. Memory locking twilight 18:29:01 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : wow 18:29:06 From sara lyons (she/they) : ! 18:29:12 From Angel Z : Thank you uuuu 18:29:17 From Eli Gelb (he/him) : Thank you so much! 18:29:18 From Mishy Jacobson : Thank you beautiful souls 18:29:19 From Jordan Baum : thank you katherine 18:29:23 From Reuven Glezer : Dankeeee 18:29:29 From Lauren Miller : Thank you all (love to Jess and Ben) <3 18:29:37 From sarah wisby : Thank you Katherine! 18:29:38 From Pinar : Thank you!